I would like to thank everyone who has been praying for us and sending us encouraging emails and calling us and everything to let us know that you are thinking about us. The issue that came up has mostly been resolved and things are settling down for us. All the struggles with stress and fear and worry have really subsided and we have been trying to rest and move on.
The other day Stephanie and I were talking about how I hadn’t blogged in a while, also we talked about how we hadn’t been gathering with the folks we had been getting together with on Saturday nights. The conversation made me think about some things that I really preferred not to, but things that I really had to deal with myself on.
The reason I stopped blogging and spending time with other believers at first was due to the fact that I really didn’t want to interact with other people through that time. The things that were going on were difficult and honestly I just wanted to shut myself away from everyone else, so I did, so WE did. Interestingly during our conversation I mentioned how I was surprised that certain people hadn’t made more of an effort to reach out to us, yet at the same time I didn’t want to be reached out to.
As time passed and things started to work out I was really convicted about the way I had shutdown from everyone outside of our home during this time. I thought a lot about how in reality, despite all my big talk and big theology the truth is that when it mattered I didn’t want community, I wanted to be left alone. Those thoughts and struggles got me feeling pretty hypocritical about everything I had been writing so I stopped writing and haven’t even looked at my blog in over a month.
There were lots of other things Stephanie and I talked about during this conversation, but I just wanted to relate that part to the people who read this blog, to the people who have expressed their concerns for our family, and to the people who have demonstrated the genuine love of Christ to our family during our struggles. Thank you for being there for us, thank you for reading my thoughts and struggles with being a member of the body of Christ and please continue to pray for us as we seek to demonstrate the love of Christ as part of his body.